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FRIENDS ONLY [Sat 22 Dec 2012 @ 10:13am] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Creedence Clearwater Revival ] [ 15 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

Sane & Logical [Mon 16 Nov 2009 @ 01:45am] I wish I felt like I had time for anything. I have so much time; where does it go? [ 2 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

:) Dates to Remember [Thu 12 Nov 2009 @ 03:09pm] June 15, 2003: Haylie Jean May 5, 2008: Aiden Lee May 29, 2008: Hunter Daniel January 21, 2009: Lily Sage --- November 12, 2009: Alyssa Jo [ 14 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

TRAGIC. [Sat 31 Oct 2009 @ 06:29pm] WAAAH! I WANTED TO SEE MEAGAN TONIGHT. [ 2 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

Writer's Block: Yes, offense taken [Sun 25 Oct 2009 @ 11:13pm] If a friend or relative makes a racist or homophobic remark, do you tend to confront them or let it slide? Are you more likely to confront them if it offends you directly or someone else who seems reluctant to speak up? View 1576 Answers I'M ONLY DOING THIS BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE LIKE ALEX, BUT SHE'S AN ENTRY DELETER :'( I don't always say something. It never slides slickly. In the past, sometimes it would throw me for a loop. Catch me off guard. And the mental shock would cause so much delay that a retort would lose its context. And I'd just sit there in a puddle of disgust. I remember very specific situations of this. I don't even like repeating them, it upsets me so much. I feel so embarrassed of these people, and ashamed to associate with them, when it's the context of people I otherwise care about. Mostly, it's not friends. Mostly, it's not relatives. It's friends of friends or friends of friends of friends. And I hate it. I really fear that the children of some of my friends are going to end up being racist because their fathers are. I hate that homophobia is more socially acceptable than racism. Or racism that isn't against black people. Now, if I don't expect it from a person it can still catch me off guard. But mostly I know who. Or where. To expect it. And I think generally I say something either way. But not usually in the way I used to, when it comes to racism. In the past I remember trying to discuss with people about why their way of thinking is wrong and messed up and not cool and try to logic them into realizing that. But now mostly my comments are of the "You're fucked up" variety. A more jaded, Well, it turns out you suck statement, although I'll get into it further depending on the response. [ 4 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

San Diego [Tue 29 Sep 2009 @ 12:19am] Daynae is officially the coolest stalker person ever, just so everyone knows. It made me laugh a lot; I love it. Thank you!! :D <333 [ 1 quiet reflection ]  REFLECT

Re: The incredible nature of truemyth. [Sun 20 Sep 2009 @ 09:57am] OMFG, GRACE. YOU ARE AMAZING. Best freaking card ever. And the inside is completely awesome. Especially because, ahahaha. So. The other day. I'm watching The X-Files in my room with this guy who has never seen it before. And for whatever reason, we end up whispering CONSPIRACY! constantly throughout the episodes. So yeah, perfect. And god, the music rocks, of course. I will be playing that quite a lot. Thank you, thank you, thank you! ♥ I really appreciate and love it. [ 2 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

A Eulogy [Sun 30 Aug 2009 @ 01:10pm] [ music | "Terry's Song" -- Bruce Springsteen ] ( / ) Now the world is filled with many wonders Under the passing sun But sometimes something comes along And you know, it's for sure the only one ( / ) Of course this would be the song, on the entire CD, that sticks out to me. It did before I even understood the lyrics and what it had to be about and was. This morning it isn't making me so blatantly sad, though. REFLECT

"Go to hell." [Wed 19 Aug 2009 @ 12:41am] VoicePost 213K 1:07 (no transcription available) [ 3 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

Attention! Yadda, yadda, yadda. [Sat 25 Jul 2009 @ 02:47am] [ mood | nostalgic ] GOF/OOTP BOARDIES! READ THIS. So, in cleaning my room I ran across a CD that turned out to have old files on it. What I miss more than anything are the e-mails I had on my AOL account and the files on my computer from the two or three times it crashed back, all of which housed the contents of my adolescence. My life for six years. This CD has a very minuscule amount of files compared to what I lost, but it has some old chats (from legitimately five years ago) and I was thinking about uploading them somewhere in case anyone is interested in seeing them. I was also thinking maybe people could post/upload things they might have saved from over the years. I get pretty nostalgic and love to look back on things like my conversations with people (in e-mail/IM/chat/post form) but I don't really have anything to look back on anymore. Maybe this would take more effort than people would care to try, but I just thought I'd see if there is any interest in some sort of massive collective of boardie nostalgia? (Though you can say no and still ask to see the handful of chats or whatever else it is that I found XD) [ 10 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

Psst. [Sat 11 Jul 2009 @ 11:40am] ( Para Rojo ) [ 2 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

We've got cows. [Sat 04 Jul 2009 @ 11:24am] I was barely able to sleep. After sleeping 11 to 1 I finally went to bed again at 5. And woke up at 7. I was having this dream I was driving down Stadium towards my school and all of a sudden my car picked up speed because there were 200 mile an hour winds and then my car was in the air because it was a tornado sucking me in and I watched the ground get farther and farther away, with each rising second giving me less hope I would survive it until I had zero hope and thought, "Well, I guess this is it," and it was sad because I wasn't ready and because I couldn't say goodbye to anyone and scary because I was a thousand feet above the ground and I was afraid to go back down and thought maybe I could just be dreaming and I could try to pull myself out of it and... I woke up. Took awhile to go back to sleep, slept maybe for another couple of hours. Hopefully that disjointed six hours will get me through the day. Which should be fantastic, if everything goes according to plan! Get-together for Kristin's birthday; 3EB. I made my shirt and it looks pretty decent. Happy 4th of July, everybody! [ 2 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

Green. [Mon 29 Jun 2009 @ 08:17am] [ mood | devastated ] I want to believe so badly, after all that has happened, that the world can change. But I don't think it can. All that blood will just fade away. [ 3 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

Late Night Breakfast. [Tue 21 Apr 2009 @ 11:46pm] Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhksdjfslkf. Too many french toast sticks. I just missed them, you know? Went a little overboard. Something like 13, ahh dying. [ 10 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

FINALS [Tue 21 Apr 2009 @ 06:39pm] I am tired and seriously unmotivated. I couldn't motivate myself enough to really study for Physics, hopefully I pulled off an 81% so I could still get an A. I think I did, but I'm not sure. I was the last person taking the test by like 15 minutes. Lovely. Yesterday my Psych test went fine. In between... I don't know what I've been doing. I've been trying to stay focused on schoolwork but I have basically nothing done and I don't know how time keeps passing. I think I might take a nap now and then try to roll out that Polisci paper. REFLECT

:) [Sat 18 Apr 2009 @ 03:42am] Today was a really good day. I have more I want to say but I am too tired to say it. Tomorrow! REFLECT

Lights out tonight [Wed 08 Apr 2009 @ 02:04am] [ mood | :) ] [ music | That E Street Band and their frontman ] FOR THE ONES WHO HAD A NOTION, A NOTION DEEP INSIDE THAT IT AIN'T NO SIN TO BE GLAD YOU'RE ALIVE I was in a semi-low mood all day but just watched and listened to the live version of a song on youtube and... that'll do it. It overwhelms me with the most amazing feeling. I don't know how to express it and I don't know how live music (even when you aren't there) affects other people, but this feeling is so inherent to me. It's that enormous crowd jumping in unison and how loud they are during the chorus and the way they carry the ohh bit. Yeah... explaining it is a waste. But it makes cry wonderfully. Wowow. When I get a job the first thing I'm treating myself to is ordering the Barcelona DVD off Amazon. (For the first time in my life, really, I'm nervous about money.) When people say that they wish they lived during the 60s I get it but also wish they'd understand we could use that spirit now. But my god do I wish I could have been around and old enough for the music of previous decades. It is a shame I didn't get into them sooner, seeing as they're on tour now. Here's hoping there'll be another one in the future. (Do I need to be ignoring how old he is for that?) [ 1 quiet reflection ]  REFLECT

Just Push Pause. [Wed 25 Feb 2009 @ 09:59pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | "Dream On" -- Aerosmith ] Musically... Bruce Springsteen is far too epic. "Trapped" made me so happy and also amused at how grand it sounds. I watched the Adam Sandler spoof the other day--did Aurea point me to that? I don't know. But then I watched the "Dancing in the Dark" because of that and that was hilarious. Oh, 80s. But god, that music puts me in such a good mood. I did switch it out of my walkman for a burned, mixed CD earlier and it turned out to be the mix I made during the summer when I was low. It's interesting how those songs ("Vienna," "American Pie," "The Masterplan," "Eleanor Rigby...") lost that sadness. I still feel really weird about that month. I sort of... feel bad for myself of then? It's complicated. Bon Iver is still depressing, but it's just that sort of music. I really want to make a mix of pretty, sad music, but thus far it is limited to Bon Iver (either "Skinny Love" or "The Wolves" or "Re: Stacks", heh), City & Colour's "Sleeping Sickness" (TY Meagan), and My Morning Jacket's "Rocket Man" cover (TY Californication), the latter two of which I'd still have to get. I don't know what else I would add, I just feel strongly that those all just fit. Any ideas what else would mix well? And for the record, I'm incredibly fond of the music ("Clair de Lune") that plays during the fountain scene of Ocean's Eleven. School-wise. God knows what I'm doing on LJ. Today went all right. Got up early, still procrastinated. Went to Psych late, as per usual, and missed whatever we did--we turned something in? We had homework? I'm very confused. We left early. I ate. Studied for Physics. That went okay. Didn't read for Polisci. Went to Polisci. Went to Ethics Bowl. Didn't say nearly anything. Ate. Came back... And somehow five hours have passed? Had a floor meeting. Sandy e-mailed us and we're staying at the Hilton when we go to Cincinnati :D \o/ I am tired, but here are the things I have to do: Write Case 13 Outline and e-mail it Critically study Case 13 before I present it to 30 people at 11 a.m. Write out Spanish presentation, translating words, and familiarizing tenses Rehearse Spanish presentation from memory, for 12:30 p.m. class. (Mostly done, will do again so before class) Write up Polisci correction to one essay and drop it off before Philosophy exam Clean my room before Philosophy due to room checks Think up research idea with independent and dependent variables for Psychology Research Proposal and e-mail them by midnight (Ignore until after PHIL) And the biggest: Read Philosophy articles with twelve of the twenty questions in mind, writing essays for each (5/12) Here's to little sleep and a prospective break when it's all over! [ 14 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

♫ [Wed 25 Feb 2009 @ 01:10pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] The world would be a truly horrible place without music. [ 4 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

Good times! [Tue 24 Feb 2009 @ 07:26pm] [ mood | happy ] I'm in a really good mood at the moment! Probably because it's Tuesday night instead of Wednesday. (Thursday is to be very terrible and hectic.) But also! I only had one class, I finished my paper on time--it was a little too long, I hope that isn't a big deal--and I just went to the Olive Garden with my mom. Before that I bought the second part of my grandma's far belated Christmas present and when I was at the store I came across something else which is so fun, especially because of for my idea for it. I can't write details til it's finished, but I'm excited! I should start studying/doing homework but I think I'm either going to watch House or take a nap. [ 4 quiet reflections ]  REFLECT

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