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[Sat 04 Jul 2009 @ 11:24am] |
I was barely able to sleep. After sleeping 11 to 1 I finally went to bed again at 5. And woke up at 7. I was having this dream I was driving down Stadium towards my school and all of a sudden my car picked up speed because there were 200 mile an hour winds and then my car was in the air because it was a tornado sucking me in and I watched the ground get farther and farther away, with each rising second giving me less hope I would survive it until I had zero hope and thought, "Well, I guess this is it," and it was sad because I wasn't ready and because I couldn't say goodbye to anyone and scary because I was a thousand feet above the ground and I was afraid to go back down and thought maybe I could just be dreaming and I could try to pull myself out of it and... I woke up.
Took awhile to go back to sleep, slept maybe for another couple of hours. Hopefully that disjointed six hours will get me through the day. Which should be fantastic, if everything goes according to plan! Get-together for Kristin's birthday; 3EB. I made my shirt and it looks pretty decent. Happy 4th of July, everybody!
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[Mon 29 Jun 2009 @ 08:17am] |
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I want to believe so badly, after all that has happened, that the world can change. But I don't think it can. All that blood will just fade away.
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| Late Night Breakfast. |
[Tue 21 Apr 2009 @ 11:46pm] |
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Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhksdjfslkf. Too many french toast sticks. I just missed them, you know? Went a little overboard. Something like 13, ahh dying.
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| FINALS |
[Tue 21 Apr 2009 @ 06:39pm] |
I am tired and seriously unmotivated. I couldn't motivate myself enough to really study for Physics, hopefully I pulled off an 81% so I could still get an A. I think I did, but I'm not sure. I was the last person taking the test by like 15 minutes. Lovely.
Yesterday my Psych test went fine. In between... I don't know what I've been doing. I've been trying to stay focused on schoolwork but I have basically nothing done and I don't know how time keeps passing.
I think I might take a nap now and then try to roll out that Polisci paper.
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[Sat 18 Apr 2009 @ 03:42am] |
Today was a really good day.
I have more I want to say but I am too tired to say it. Tomorrow!
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| Lights out tonight |
[Wed 08 Apr 2009 @ 02:04am] |
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FOR THE ONES WHO HAD A NOTION, A NOTION DEEP INSIDE THAT IT AIN'T NO SIN TO BE GLAD YOU'RE ALIVE
I was in a semi-low mood all day but just watched and listened to the live version of a song on youtube and... that'll do it. It overwhelms me with the most amazing feeling. I don't know how to express it and I don't know how live music (even when you aren't there) affects other people, but this feeling is so inherent to me. It's that enormous crowd jumping in unison and how loud they are during the chorus and the way they carry the ohh bit. Yeah... explaining it is a waste. But it makes cry wonderfully.
Wowow. When I get a job the first thing I'm treating myself to is ordering the Barcelona DVD off Amazon. (For the first time in my life, really, I'm nervous about money.)
When people say that they wish they lived during the 60s I get it but also wish they'd understand we could use that spirit now. But my god do I wish I could have been around and old enough for the music of previous decades. It is a shame I didn't get into them sooner, seeing as they're on tour now. Here's hoping there'll be another one in the future. (Do I need to be ignoring how old he is for that?)
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[Wed 25 Feb 2009 @ 09:59pm] |
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Musically... Bruce Springsteen is far too epic. "Trapped" made me so happy and also amused at how grand it sounds. I watched the Adam Sandler spoof the other day--did Aurea point me to that? I don't know. But then I watched the "Dancing in the Dark" because of that and that was hilarious. Oh, 80s. But god, that music puts me in such a good mood.
I did switch it out of my walkman for a burned, mixed CD earlier and it turned out to be the mix I made during the summer when I was low. It's interesting how those songs ("Vienna," "American Pie," "The Masterplan," "Eleanor Rigby...") lost that sadness. I still feel really weird about that month. I sort of... feel bad for myself of then? It's complicated. Bon Iver is still depressing, but it's just that sort of music.
I really want to make a mix of pretty, sad music, but thus far it is limited to Bon Iver (either "Skinny Love" or "The Wolves" or "Re: Stacks", heh), City & Colour's "Sleeping Sickness" (TY Meagan), and My Morning Jacket's "Rocket Man" cover (TY Californication), the latter two of which I'd still have to get. I don't know what else I would add, I just feel strongly that those all just fit. Any ideas what else would mix well?
And for the record, I'm incredibly fond of the music ("Clair de Lune") that plays during the fountain scene of Ocean's Eleven.
School-wise. God knows what I'm doing on LJ. Today went all right. Got up early, still procrastinated. Went to Psych late, as per usual, and missed whatever we did--we turned something in? We had homework? I'm very confused. We left early. I ate. Studied for Physics. That went okay. Didn't read for Polisci. Went to Polisci. Went to Ethics Bowl. Didn't say nearly anything. Ate. Came back... And somehow five hours have passed? Had a floor meeting. Sandy e-mailed us and we're staying at the Hilton when we go to Cincinnati :D \o/ I am tired, but here are the things I have to do:
Write Case 13 Outline and e-mail itCritically study Case 13 before I present it to 30 people at 11 a.m.Write out Spanish presentation, translating words, and familiarizing tensesRehearse Spanish presentation from memory, for 12:30 p.m. class. (Mostly done, will do again so before class)Write up Polisci correction to one essay and drop it off before Philosophy examClean my room before Philosophy due to room checks- Think up research idea with independent and dependent variables for Psychology Research Proposal and e-mail them by midnight (Ignore until after PHIL)
- And the biggest: Read Philosophy articles with twelve of the twenty questions in mind, writing essays for each (5/12)
Here's to little sleep and a prospective break when it's all over!
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[Wed 25 Feb 2009 @ 01:10pm] |
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The world would be a truly horrible place without music.
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[Tue 24 Feb 2009 @ 07:26pm] |
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I'm in a really good mood at the moment! Probably because it's Tuesday night instead of Wednesday. (Thursday is to be very terrible and hectic.) But also! I only had one class, I finished my paper on time--it was a little too long, I hope that isn't a big deal--and I just went to the Olive Garden with my mom.
Before that I bought the second part of my grandma's far belated Christmas present and when I was at the store I came across something else which is so fun, especially because of for my idea for it. I can't write details til it's finished, but I'm excited!
I should start studying/doing homework but I think I'm either going to watch House or take a nap.
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| Kick it in the ass. |
[Wed 28 Jan 2009 @ 02:38am] |
"The thing about Kim is that he's so emotional about his work," Bob Goodwin recalls. "You watch him at the monitor while he's doing a scene, and you can't imagine how anybody can live on that kind of level. He just throws himself into it, body and soul. It would just drain me." "Die Hand" co-writer Glen Morgan notes that, "Kim was a very passionate guy. I'd drop in on him in Vancouver when he was shooting something emotional, and he'd be in tears."
I was going to reply to all my comments last night, update for the first regular daily entry, and catch up on my friends page. Then I read the news and that became impossible.
I wasn't sure if I was going to hold it together or not and when I realized I wasn't I dove out of bed and into the bathroom, ran the water and started crying. I started doing the dishes as an excuse, in case Rebecca asked.
I looked through The Complete X-Files and then watched "Apocrypha" and part of "Milagro" with commentary before going to sleep. I finished "Milagro" when I woke up.
Listening to Kim talk was depressing, but... There was also something so healing about it being The X-Files. It being our show and the reason we have this connection to that fantastic director in the first place. This show and his episodes still being there, always. About how, as sad as it is, I can't help but laugh when Chris Carter says, "I think you can actually date the series through Gillian's hairstyles," and again when Kim talks about her hair in "Milagro." I officially think the fandom is pretty justified for focusing on her hair.
"Apocrypha" was pretty somber with Chris discussing how "we bury the dead alive." I loved hearing Kim talk about his directing style and how he dislikes storyboards and simply sees the scenes in his head. And how he looks at things from the audience's chair. He is our link.
One of the hundred things that has made me happy whenever I go to Meagan's and watch Supernatural with her and Seth has been seeing the names "Kim Manners" and "John Shiban" show up on the screen with each episode. It seems logically impossible that that should end.
Reading his bits in the book and hearing what he had to say... the number of insightful and interesting things. And humorous...
Gillian Anderson explains that 'Tunguska' inspired a running on set gag when Manners objected to the actors' attitude toward the story's main prop: "He was trying to remind us that what we were dealing was from outer space, and we were treating it too casually. So right before we would shoot, he'd yell 'Rock from Mars!' and that was a running gag from that point on. Every time we needed to get it up for the scene, Kim would yell 'Rock from Mars!' and that would be his way of king of sparking life back into us when we were just too exhausted."
"Rob and I had the greatest competitive nature together," Manners laughs. "I would look at his dailies, and I'd say 'That dirty rat bastard' because he'd come up with a great shot, a great performance. He'd say my dailies, and he'd come down and go 'You son of a bitch.'"
"When Kim directs, his favorite thing is, 'Kick it in the ass.'" Owens says. "Kim is very dynamic, and he loves to get right in there; he's very passionate. So the set would naturally be a little more boisterous that day."
And then of course, there's the quote, following the explanation about why "Teso Dos Bichos" completely fell apart, "I begged Chris, let's revisit the leopard in the teaser because I'm never going to make these cats scary." I love this show. When it is amazing beyond belief and when it is... well, "Teso Dos Bichos." It's clear how integral Kim Manners was to the show and though I'll remember him for his work, my heart goes out to those who remember him for him. Who are a part of the stories we cling to through such a tragedy.
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| 5:06 AM; 6 pounds, 12 ounces; 20 1/2 inches. |
[Wed 21 Jan 2009 @ 11:24pm] |
I was sitting on the floor of Rood Hall between my Physics lecture and Polisci class, as always, and I received a picture message. OF A BABY.

Lily Sage Perkins. Amanda's daughter. I immediately called her and gushed and spent the next few hours screaming under my breath and grinning like crazy and running wherever I went.
I went and saw them and she is tiny and adorable and they were both doing well. I had a really nice time hanging out up there. More details later, but now I must sleep. Still... :)))))
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[Thu 15 Jan 2009 @ 01:55am] |
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:)
I am... caught up!
Not on communities and now I still have to update you all on my life, but.
This is honestly such a weight off of my shoulders.
I ♥ you all!
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| TOTAL MSR. |
[Mon 24 Nov 2008 @ 08:01pm] |
OH MY MOTHER FUCKING GOD.
This is me joining in on the flail. It is a necessity for me to in order for Meagan and Maggie and whatever potential Philes on my FList who aren't following xfiles to know. To see this.
FIGHT. THE. FUTURE.
If you've seen it. You've groaned at the bee scene. And hopefully come across the amazing blooper and squeed.
But this. This is not a blooper. This is completely in character and completely lksdfjl;jalskdfj!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:O If that had actually happened...
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| Writer's Block: Ten for the Tenth |
[Tue 11 Nov 2008 @ 12:11am] |
I know three for sure.
   1. Third Eye Blind's self-titled album 2. Our Lady Peace: Happiness is Not a Fish That You Can Catch 3. The Almost Famous soundtrack
And then it gets complicated. I'm not sure if I should count Best of albums, maybe soundtracks shouldn't but my love for the above soundtrack outweighs any such rules.
I'm tempted to put more OLP and 3EB albums but I won't as that would leave room for only three other bands. Still, the following are subject to change.
4. Oasis: What's the Story (Morning Glory) 5. The Goo Goo Dolls: Dizzy Up the Girl 6. Matchbox Twenty: Yourself or Someone Like You 7. Counting Crows: Films About Ghosts: Best of... 8. Guster: Lost and Gone Forever 9. The Barenaked Ladies: Stunt 10. Red Hot Chili Peppers: Californication
My 90s fan is showing.
And meh. Some of these albums I think I might just be listing because in the earlier days of my CD obsession I had less CDs to listen to. So... I'm much more familiar with the older ones as far as albums as a whole? (Not that I don't love them!) So take these with a grain of salt. The first three for sure forever, though.
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[Tue 04 Nov 2008 @ 11:25pm] |
I'm excited for a presidency.
That feels so nice.
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